Inner Monologue

Why am I not good enough? I don’t understand. Except, there’s this. I’m not thin. I’m not smart. I don’t reach for your hand. I stare at your mouth and then look away- remembering every day. I’m a stupid bitch and a selfish little thing. I can’t please you, why do I try? Everything I say and do you say you see the truth. My reality is different and I think you know the rouse. No matter though, this whole languid Greek tragedy is over.

A Single Raven

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O’ why can’t I get out of here! Is it comfort, malaise, or not knowing how to deal?

I stare blankly into your eyes and you grasp me firmly in your arms- I scream, let me go!

You look away and then turn back with tears- what story line have you dreamed up?

This is it, yes is it, there is no other way. I push you off the cliff and you holler, still holding my hand.

We lay beside each other on the ground, black eyes shining- and a single raven…circling around.

Cranberry Lips

Cranberry lips leave a thin line around the rim

He doesn’t remove it- thinks it’s hot and I’m fine

Wet lips explore his mouth and he tastes me like sweet candy

Relishing the intimate moments we’re daring to share

In the quiet of the moonlight we take our time to touch

To feel his large hands cupping me it’s almost. too. much.

Love or lust? Does it matter? Do I care?

His dark eyes and warm tan body makes me want to sin

Suddenly we are skin to skin and my hand rubs up and down him.

Insomniac

She grips the pillow tightly like someone may come in the room and take it. Not the one under her strawberry blonde hair, of course, but the one her boyfriend lays on. It’s comforting this cold night. She listens to the low hum of the fan that’s constantly running and that steady droll makes her feel better. There’s a loneliness when the dark world has their eyes shut and you’re the only one awake.

Write something! Break this long, fucking dry spell of writer’s block-even if what comes out completely sucks. Your few fans may understand, being writers themselves. If they laugh at you-you’ll never know it! Hold that head high! Just remind them you’re a stoic poet with a slight sense of humor. And maybe they will come back and read more another day…

Expensive Wine

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Posing on the colorless cliff my hands weaker by the moment

Simply gripping these rocks because you told me to
Went out on a limber limb, now waiting, what will you do?
Thinking back on a simpler time with expensive wine in crystal finery
Candlelight’s dancing flames cast shimmering shadows on the bedroom wall
He yells at me one last time dancing on the edge-of insanity.
Jumping off the ledge, I guess, is quicker than divorce. With that I watch him plunge.

Bruised Brunette

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I try to be a good wife
Desperately wanting a better life.
 I’m not good enough for him, muttering  to herself
I can’t stop, she begins to cry, he doesn’t understand.. hangs me on the shelf.
7 years of marriage, drinking every day
I pander to that man-car begins to sway…
The wrong way, a double yellow line
A truck rear ends her double flips off the bridge
60 foot drop to the highway below
mangled metal crushed and bruised brunette
I really did it this time…
~Now everything is fine.