I’m so sad I’m afraid my broken heart will fail. And to know you’ll find another girl- makes me want to be impaled. I can’t believe I lost you again… Poet, you have to stop, talking to myself…
You can’t continue to think about this
Or you will drown in your own tears.
What’s the answer? Where’s the relief?
There is no recourse for grief.
I’m somewhere in the in-between of holding on and letting go
I’m neither here nor there as my mind ponders what to do
If there’s a whole world out there waiting to take my hand
It’s too bad I can’t take control of what’s happening in this land.
I’m trying to let you go but how many times must my love be tried
The silence and blank stare from your dark eyes, could it be a lie?
Has the love disappeared once and for all- please tell me it’s not true.
I loved you the moment I saw you- your muscular body was my refuge
I grew up with you, had your babies, and now I’m just someone you knew.
I’m looking for myself today because I’m all alone* I glance out the window and think of my former home *Where have I gone, What have I done, I bend down and pick up a stone*He’s rejected me again, I’m pulling out my hair, will I ever learn? *The rain begins to fall and tempers start to flare*The sound of anger in his voice and his callous stare just breaks my heart and brings me tears*I’m looking for myself today, as he decided not to love me, and is no longer here.
I want to start over and erase the past-and be everything to you that was supposed to last. You lay in our bed resting so sweet but it’s 3am and yet again, I can’t sleep. You are that sad love song I can’t get out of my head as I look back and remember what I did. Forgiveness is there yet far out of reach and I see a divide I just can’t breach-I need you so bad, body and soul. But you feel just out of reach for a woman in this hole. Just tell me how I can win you back-I’ll do anything in my power to make sure it’s forever.